So like... what a trip

Update
Got back from Puerto Rico yesterday. It was great! I had a lot of fun. I realized that over there, nobody really cares about anything, especially the police. I got to see Castile del Morro and San Christobal. We went to Old San Juan, and drove all over the North East corner, and went to almost all the East side. I got to learn a lot of Spanish and learned about another place in the world. Amazing! The food was amazing!

My birthday was awesome! Got lots of nice stuff, even some stuff for my cards. Loved it!

Came back yesterday and had Quetzel, Aaron, Andy, and Angel over. It was fun. Aaron and I dueled a lot. Everyone still makes fun of us for it but we still dont care. We played some poker, took some shotz, and other things later. It was great! Nice to feel the good times again.

Looking forward to Fernando's party.

Going back soon
So I am leaving to go back to Mercer soon and I am really excited to go! I cannot wait to move into my apartment that I got there with my friends. The only thing is that one kid is not coming back so we have an open space. The thing is that I spoke to another friend at Mercer yesterday, Spencer, and he said he didnt know if he was going to stay at the KA house. It would be cool if he roomed with us, I like Spence.
I am excited to get back to school and be in ROTC and take my history classes. I am only taking 14 credits I think so I will have more time than last year, which will be a welcomed beginning to my sophomore year.
I will miss Krystal when I leave.
I am trying to get together a lucrative business up at Mercer but I do not know if it will work out. Who knows? It would generate some nice side-cash though...

Sometimes
Sometimes I hate what people say
They forget to watch and think before
and do not keep their mouth at bay

Sometimes I hate what people do
The thought their's is all they know
They never think of me or you

Sometimes I hate my country of birth
Filled with people full of greed
Always looking to widen their girth

What those people don't know
is what us good people feel
the sorrow in loss
the loss of belief

To lose faith in your home
Is to fall off a ledge
You shall never return
without an arduous treck

So far from our promises
so far from the dream
Will we ever return
to know what justice means

New York 2009
So I went to New York for a week. Mostly to see family and partly to see the city and sightsee. It was nice to get away and not have to deal with anything.
So I hung out at my grandparent's house and my dad stayed stayed at his sister's place. Those were the sleeping arrangments though so he was typically with us at my grandparent's. My trip was good and bad. We went to the beach one day and I lost my glasses, which sucks because my dad told me not to go into the ocean with glasses because I would loose them in the rough waves. Now I have to buy new glasses :(
I also had to worry the whole time about the injury claim made against me for the accident. I tried not to think about the possibilities though so it worked out fine.
We went into the city one day and got really nice food for cheap in Chinatown and got raw clams on the street for ten dollars a doz. which is amazing. I learned never to shop in Chinatown for anything that you need authentic because everything there is fake, including packaged pokemon and yugioh cards. The make their own packaging, their own cards, and then package the cards and sell them cheap. Unfuckingbelievable! All the mispellings are funny to look at though lol.
I really enjoyed the time there. I saw my grandparents who are 83 and 82. I saw my Granduncle and aunt who are 90 and 92/3? and my aunt (62) my cousins Lorry and Caroline and my 2nd cousin Andriana who is 9 and funny. I love to see them. I wish I could have seen the family on my mother's side.
We went to Port Jefferson and had great seafood, and to Smithtown to shop. We went to a water park one day, which was kind of lame and I lost my glasses at the beach... so yeah.
Overall though I loved it. Another great memory

At Work
I am at work again and today has already been a long day. I am really exhausted and all I want to do is sit down and play games or something of the sort.
I went to sleep at 0200 yesterday or rather this morning and woke up at 0930, which means that I have had less sleep than I am used to. The first thing I did was play Fire Emblem on my GBA to wake myself up. Then I mowed my lawn and cleaned up the driveway from the grass. Then I drove straight to Krystal's house because she wanted to run with me. So Krystal's house is exactly a mile from Pines Blvd. which means there and back is basically two miles. So Krystal and I ran the two miles and she did not make it (I did) lol. Either way I was pretty tired after that but then I had to leave almost immediately to meet my father at Chicken Chop on the Grill for lunch. I ate my food in like ten minutes and then proceeded to speed home to shower, get dressed and leave to go to work. And here I am, at work until five and then I have to drive to my mother's house and let the doggy out and watch her while my mother picks up my sister and Krystal? (idk?).
When my mom gets home I will finally get a break to just go into a corner and pass out or something.
I want the gold coin I ordered... but it has not come yet.
Stocks are up so I am very happy =D, but tired =O~~~~
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Camping Yes?
I am at work again. This seems to be the only place that I have enough free time to just... journal? sounds gay but then again who cares?

I did not wake up early like I wanted to today, which is annoying... I wanted to wake up and run. Oh well. I got a good night's sleep and woke up. I got to play some Fire Emblem on my pink GBA and lose a bunch of times, get frustrated, eat and then drive thirty minutes to work. Sound bad? I enjoyed it. I'll just run while I am at my mother's this afternoon. I wonder if Krystal wants to come? I should call her.

Jon wants to go camping and I am really excited to potentially go camping again. It is difficult for me to imagine it though because I am troubled by the Jon-Quetsel (sp?) problem. Both want to go camping and both have trouble with being in the same place at the same time. So yeah... I refuse to pick sides anymore. I am going camping and Andy and Aaron want to go so we will figure it out. I want to get wasted in the forest! :D lol. The trip would have to be August 14, 15, and 16; if I quit my job early and tell the bunch that I am required to leave for ROTC Training the weekend of the 7th and that I must leave on the morning of the 7th to get there on-time then I could go to Puerto Rico and Camp for like a week! GENIUS! Done! so I am going camping for a week. Who wants to come?

Here Again
So here I am for one more day of working with the middle schoolers. Actually I have to confess that some are prospective high schoolers. I guess it might not matter though. Its been raining like crazy and we have had on and off power surges so the computer lab is making me a tad nervous now.

The weekend was great! I got a new car to replace the jeep and its great. It is a 2002 Toyota Celica. One of the greatest things about it is that it gets around 33MPG which I love because "it helps the environment"? and really because I have to fill it up less which means that I save money lol. It also rivals my sisters 2004 Ford Mustang because its real sporty looking.

Today I had and will be having the kids doing an exercise where they talk about "their world," which is nice because instead of having them write some bullshit about their world I can have them attempt to express themselves through conversation. It was nice to here some of them say they wanted to be pediatricians or dentists. Some of the girls are shy but the guys like to participate too much hahaha, but it is welcomed to a degree because I would rather have too much than nothing. We talked about music, career, parents, school, and other things. I really enjoy my job sometimes.

My mom wants to go to Puerto Rico for my birthday which means Ill have to move the camping date to the last week before I go back to school. I really want to go on a camping trip again because I feel like the last one kind of fell flat because of the circumstances that culminated into a bear attack and strange feeling of stalkers. It would be nice. Plus this time we can bring all the necessary utilities that we forgot last time, like jeans, an axe, boots, and other things.

I'm hungry...

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: One kid is playing Michael Jackson?

The Day is Over
Other end to another day in my life.

After work I saw gas for $2.37 which made me smile because it is good to see the prices finally dropping. I do not know how much longer they will drop though since the credit of our country is slowly declining because of our crazy spending.

I went to my mom's house and the damn dog would not go to the bathroom outside. So frustrating. So I just put her back in the cage. If I do not then when I am distracted she will go in the corner. If I leave her in the cage then she will not go because she will not go where she sits, hence no space. Either way she eventually went outside and was dually rewarded.

My mom's was great. We went out to this Diner which was filled with old people and this one particularly angry old person behind me with a very nasally tone. So annoying. She kept babbling about nothing... Anyways I went on my usual Shpeel about how some people deserve to die and likened it to how some animal mothers eat their children if they have defects upon birth. Have not changed my mind yet.

I actually bought my first gold coin today on ebay which was rather exciting. I paid a decent amount of money for it but it is an 1849 gold $1 pice which should fit nicely into the piece of my great grandmother's collection that my part of the family still holds. Excited to get it!

Closing up the day now. I got to talk to my dad a little bit more about getting a new car. I tried to make the point that getting the Scion xB would be nice because it would give save us $1,000. He said it did not matter. Why? I do not know. He said it did not matter if it cost another two or three thousand dollars if it was the right car. I said I agreed but that I was thinking of it as a bonus to me already liking the car. He said it did not matter so I shutup.

"You're already paying a lot of money for what you're buying so if it's the right car for you then paying another thousand or so dollars doesn't matter"

"I know I like the car I was just thinking of it as an added bonus"

"It doesn't matter"

"ok"

Current Mood: dicks
Current Music: I Like Big Dicks and I Can't Not Lie

I want to escape
Society. Everything seems so extraneous sometimes. Like none of it actually matters. I cannot explain what I mean to those ho do not understand. Society is unimportant. It serves as a means for collective advancement. Nobody needs it though. The Earth grants us all the things we need to survive.Is it realy this simple though? No.

Society serves a purpose. Without it we would not live as long as we do now. We might not live with certain invisible protections, such as the law, like we do now. Without society we would not know true comfort. Society is cursed for the same reason though.

It is a trade-off that we all make. We live confortably but only if we can earn that comfort. If we cannot then we live not absent of comfort as if society did not exist, but missing comfort knowing that the comfort is there but that we do not have it. We live less happily because we must work and strive for the things that we need to survive. We must live up to society's standards and not our own comforts. We cannot make our own houses and land is not free. Society makes things easily accessible but costly. We cannot be self-sufficient.

Society is some sense is a gamble for success. If you can succeed then you will have what you need and possibly what you want. If you cannot succeed or get unlucky during your quest for success you will be cursed with the loss of necessities or a great struggle in order to achieve the necessities. Is it your fault when the economy crashes and you get laid off? No. You just got unlucky. It sucks but you have just crossed the threshold into societially unsuccessful. If there is no society then nobody is unsuccessful. Why? Because nature eliminates those who are unsuccessful. Those who cannot provide for themselves die off and those who can live. Money is not important but food water and cloth is. Luxeries are not sought necessities are. More people can live happily and less stupid and lazy people live.

FUCK THE POLICE

Current Mood: curious
Current Music: Fuck the Police! By My Dick!

Been A While
So yeah its been a while since I have posted an entry...

I am sitting here at work right now thinking of what to do. Just bored as hell. This place gets to me sometimes and is very stressful but fortunately I have a plan to make things a little more organized.

I work at the Boys and Girls Club of Broward County, which by any standard is hectic and unorganized. At least it pays well. It is hard to get anything accomplished here because the place is not mandatory so I cannot hold anything over the heads of the prospective eighth (sp?) graders I teach, or am supposed to be teaching. My job right now is more crowd control than educating. Such a pain...

The truth is that all of these kids are from poorer areas than I come from and in addition to that they are all in middle school still or very immature. None of them really have any visions for the future and it sometimes bothers me. It is hard to keep these kids doing something constructive for an extended period of time because their attention spans are like thirty minutes max. I am constantly torn between letting them have a good time and trying to get them to think about their future and their education. I wish they cared, but the truth is that they really do not. Race % at my job: 99% Black .5% Hispanic .5% White. Depressing.... some of them are really good kids though.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Kids Talking Behind Me

Foreign or International? Both
The Bahamas are okay.
It's somewhat like Disney World except more of a fasad. I mean I'm at a pretty nice hotel; The Sherridan. It's a great hotel, but honestly everything is so fake. I think I might actually enjoy the real Bahamas. The markets, the people, the culture, and so many more things.

The nicest thing about the place though is the view. The are so many amazing views that are just so hard to find in the world.

Everything here on the hotel grounds are so fake though. I landed at an airport that had one plane in it (the one I landed on). I walked off the airplane onto the tarmat and into the airport which was about the size of a house in Weston. Once we cleared customs, which consisted of six people with stamps in three different lines we proceeded outside. The Bahamians drive on the opposite sides of the road which totally makes things confusing. There are no new cars or relatively new cars, and the only car I've really seen is a white van and all types of vans or buses. Nobody can afford airconditioning or even gas, and the culture on the island is so mixed with the tourist fasad that it is revolting. Its not great but it will do.

I really miss Krystal more than anything right now. I can't help it. I love her so much and I can't really talk to he because I'm international, which costs a fortune. Its so annoying, but she's in Orlando anyways, so being home wouldn't help at all. I miss her so much, more than anything. Love

I finished my really good book that I had to read for college "The Whisper of the River". It was so great, and actually quite an inspiration for my future college experience at Mercer University. I'm going to have so much fun, but I will miss everyone terribly. All the memories and the present immaturity will all be but rememberances of a great past.

Current Mood: listless

Sit and hear
the story we tell,
of the cries and tears,
and ringing bells.

For whom does it ring?
Why does it toll?
Because one less shall we bring
back from the knoll.

Why is he gone?
What was the cause?
Was it his heart of bronze?
Did he follow the laws?

Blood of cold;
numb steel takes life;
kills a heart of gold,
and destroys a wife.

It opens the doors
to international strife,
but where do we put
the price on a life?

What are we worth,
if anything at all,
when we are given to birth
and start to walk the halls.

God be justice to those
who murder the good.
God hang them high
and take off their hoods.

Current Music: Hands Held High

so like...
Im sitting here bored to death tying to find a way to entertain myself so i dont think of all of the bad things that have been happening recently. So i decided to get back into Livejournal. The chill session with Quetzel and Aaron, whejn we were looking at livejournal was really inspiring to keep up with it and relieve all the tension inside me.

The days recently have been extremely long. Thigns have been tolerable at worst, which i guess is okay, but i cant really complain. I think i have been to focused on the wrong things and not on the priorities. I think women have been distracting me too much and i became to disillusioned with what was really important. I seem to have lost my way and forgoten that patience is a virtue. So instead of pursuing something that drives me crazy im just going to forget about it, maybe forever.

Sometimes i just forget to forcus on the positives instead of the negatives. Everyone does it, even awesome people. I just sneezed.

Oh and how could i forget that i almost hit Fernando today going like 40 mph in reverse in my community. lol.

Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Aquabats- Im a Winner

People dont change
Well once again i sit here, utterly bewildered by all the occurances that have congealed in my life at this point.

I am considering at great lengths whether to continue my pursuit to find someone tolerate. I am starting to think Rachel is not worth the two cents i have in my pocket right now. Maybe its just my high expectations, maybe... and hats why i am considering and not doing at this point. Only time will surely tell what the truth is and all truths will be known eventually. I cannot pretend to know what she lives through and such as that i cannot base what she doesnt or fails to do on any tangilble conclusion. What has happened has happened and that is that.

I need to curve my bad habitts of incesant calling, if one can even call it incesant; i know i dont. But my friends are right and i need to know if she is worth the two cents in my pocket, and the only way to know is by seeing if she really cares. I refuse to call or text her untill she does so to me, and if she cares she will, and if she doesnt then neither do I. I have a friend that i am working with tomorrow and i will have a talk with her to see if i can find anything out.

Only time will tell, and it will.

Current Music: Ben Folds Five- Army

some thoughts
Well im in JROTC right now and im really depressed for some reason. i guess its just really depressing being in here a lone doing paperwork while everyone else is outside doing Physical Training. Nvm im better, i guess being depressed is just a way of looking at things lol. idk why i was.

I think its kind of strange how u can go from being really depressed to really happy. lol its just ur mind set on issues in ur life. but anyways, i skipped 1st hour to come to JROTC do catch up on some paper work and noone is here so i figured LIVEJOURNAL! lol i have it next period also to ill prolly be here for 3-4 hours today.

Life is alright. Jon and I have a mutual understanding of each others lives and together we make it through life, so i bhave someone to talk to that understands what its like, and visa versa for Jon.

I want to start reading a lot more, Fernandos talk with me really forced me to take a hard ;look at myself and i decided that i was going to make myself a better person and smarter. i started reading the Bible, its very controversial i dont agree with their ideas on the creation of the earth and humans, its stupid.

This weekend should prove to be challenging with all the homework and JROTC crap i have to do coming up, not to mention life is hard enough to get by without shit to do.

i need a vacation...

Current Mood: i need to vacation!
Current Music: nothing

Life
Life is simple and serine but it is the constant thought of loss that makes us doubt and stumble. I realize as i type this entry that i should no longer regret anything i have done or failed to do, because in the end it is not the amount of things you have but the content of your character that will be judged. There will always be those who are shallow and say "This person did not succeed in what he did". Well it does not matter what he did or did not do, what does matter is whether he did it honestly or dishonestly.

Upon this notion i have reached an epiphany in learning that all that i do is not important but the intentions that i had while doing them. Yes you can be arrested, and jailed for killing a person, but if you did not intentionally kill that man and feel remorse for your actions no matter what anyone does you are an innocent man. It matters not what you say (although it may be interpreted another way) because if the person you are conversing with is truely and honestly your friend he/she will give that extra chance to explain what you said. It is otherwise not worth your time and effort to maintain a false friendship that upon any incidental insult will fall apart.

Neither a friendship or relationship are a one-sided conversation. It takes two to be friends and two caring people to have a relationship.

The truth might hurt...

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Catch 22- A Minor Point

and the world keeps spinning
i have no remorse for those among us who show no compasion, those who allow others to dwindle in the wind, those who allow the few to will the many, and those who do not speak their mind. There is a reason we think and it is not to hurt, it is to learn; hurt and pain are a division in the road of life that those among us do not have to take but choose to take because the other path is cloaked by a mirror. It is always harder to learn than it is to walk a path of pain and hurt. We all end up back on the path of learning and if we dont we are dead, emotionally or physically, this is why it is fruitless to take the path towards pain and suffering. It is difficult to decifer the mirror that stands in front of you, blocking the path, but the mirror is there for a reason. It is meant to show you yourself and what you have let yourself become and where you must look to fix it. Once you can read the mirror there is no need to walk hindered by suffering because you can see you and what you are. The mirror is meant to show you that you have not lost anything, because you are still you. This mirror does not show you a physical reflection it is a mirror filled with your emotion, it is you and and so long as you can look in that mirror and understand it you will live through every trial and tribulation put upon you. It is only natural that we fail but it is the greatest among us that can foster success out of failure

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Bad Religion

Today
i can already predict how gay today will be VERY GAY! fuckin homework all day. AP US, Pre Calc, Chemistry Project, Work. so very gay. and i had a wierd fucking dream today and not surprisingly Rachel was in it and i remember in my dream i asked her something about our relationship being stagnant, and she said it was (in my dream). she also liked some other guy in my dream called Jason (one of her Xs). idk and i was gay in my dream too, it was stupid as fuck. but ive convinced myself not to do anything else, and if she cares she'll call back if not then it was a lost cause to begin with. i know im not going to be in any mood for anything today, and im prolly going to get asked about it at work today and idk what im going to say about it, and i know Monday that im going to get asked about it by the two or three people that i shared this with and i still dont know what im going to say prolly that i dont wanna talk about it. idk but thats all for my rant about that and im not going to talk about it or think zabout untill she calls back.
Sadam Hussien is being sentenced to death by hanging, damn bastard deserves it. i cant wait till he dies thats one less radical bastard i have to deal with in my life time, next i think we should invade Syria and Iran and kill the leaders there too. i hate them all, and its timesw like this that i wish we had a president with balls enough to make this coutry stand the fuck up for itself. so that every courty in the whole fucking world didnt develope nuclear weapons.

Current Mood: distressed
Current Music: mustard plug- Lollita

Im back
well guys im back. fuck myspace. i like LJ better anyways lol. a lot to say and a lot not to say...
today was alright i was very upset this afternoon but idk why i guess i started to care to much lol if there even is such a thing. this morning i woke up real early to do my homework, which i ended up not doing anyways, because my weekend was basically canibalized because i had to go to JROTC instead of the movies with Rachel. Yeah im really bored and i cant wait till tomorrow cuz its gonna suck big penis because im going to have to do homework all fucking day. i hate monotony it really bothers me a lot. maybe im just stupid lol.
aaron says i should be a stand up commedian. idk about that one that could get a little dangerous lol. i tend to say a lot of things that many people would disagree with me about and shoot me for. i think it would also ruin my chances of becoming president. i think if i did do it id prolly be best off doing it after the presidency because i could make fun of myself if i lost where i was and it would give me more things to talk about, and everyone loves someone whpo makes fun of themself. ive actually though about it though believe it or not. it be fun =D lol.
i want a pet monkey. so whenever someone breaks into my house hell throw his shit at that person. that would make me laugh.

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: NOFX

really bored in school
Well im in class right now and i have nothing to do so im doing this. we have no teacher, we have no substitute, we have nothing really. just kids. we already watched the incredibles and we already did nothing so what else can we do? im not gonna go to my 2nd hour cuz i dont want to cuz its boring. i hate algebra2 my teacher is so fucking boring and plus i have a test today that i didnt study for lol. once again i hate algebra 2.

im thinking about going to 3rd hour cuz i hhave absolutely noting to do here so yeah lol. the girl i was gonna ask out isnt even fucking here today which sucks big black penis and annoys the shit out of me! GOD DAMN IT! whatever it doesant really matter ill just have to do it monday. its all the same thing either way. i might go to my 4th hour for my 3rd hour and then just stay there lol. im basically not gonna do nething today which is gay. i should have just stayed home *sigh*. this weekend might be a bad one cuz i didnt get to ask out that girl and aaron is just gonna tell me it doesnt matter, which it doesnt, but its still gonna greatly bother me and im gonna have to hang out a lot to get it off my mind.

these past couple of days havent really been that great for me. when i told her i really liked her i couldnt read her reaction b/c it was to sporatic but im hoping her best friend is here today so i can clear some things up in my mind. the reason it bothers me so much is because i dont know nething. if i knew then i would know whhat to do but i dont know so i dont know to get over her or to keep liking her. i am mentally confused right now

well i have to go to training on Saturday from 10-12 at coldstones so i can get the job there. i havent bought my uniform yet but i can easily get one at Wal Mart. i hope it makes my weekend good and not just for the moment. i really need a job because silver keeps going up nonstop and i need to buy more. this guy that i buy silver from has a brick of silver, like a brick that u put in a house. its crazy 100oz. brick of silver. that would run like $1500, crazy! i want it!!!

i still cnt get over the fact that we dont have a teacher or a substitute lol. an administrator even walked in and was like "where is the teacher?" and we were like "we dont know" and thhe administrator just walked away lol. Horray for the public school system lol. today will probably be extremely boring and slow. oh well lol

Current Mood: okay
Current Music: watching Dream Catcher *scary*

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